Don’t we all seek what you so wish? Yes we do…life and love. What you need not do is be afraid so you can find. One clue to finding love lies in being ‘present’ so one can be able to ‘see’ the world ‘outside’ as a beautiful place. We are all human and sometimes we miscalculate and make mistakes but the old saying will have it that it’s better to have loved and lost than not to have loved at all. Patience my dear and one day you will find what you seek for life you have and love you will one day find.
Yes, l’ve heard that the gardens can be preety small but for lazy people devine. It’s good you have your drawings and your music to keep you occupied.
That piece of land you dream of will be yours when you’re ready.